Found my soul again flying again

For years I searched for love in another. Trying to only find a soul mate to complete me. When really I was already complete, Life is a magical adventure. Seeing this movie tonight, made me realize i am lucky to have the love of my mother. Many people never had that. Also seeing new friends and family, as my circle expands... then I feel magical and blessed inside. Maybe I am not so alone... maybe i am not so dark. yet sometimes I wish I hide in the darkness... Yet I am always a mystery to you all and will be. But tonight I fly again with good emotions...

I think I don't believe much in love anymore

It's so easy to forget about love. To deep inside know there is no one out there for me. To know I will never find what I am truly looking for. Maybe it's why these days i feel more sadness than ever before. Today especially. I had a friend ask me when it would be my turn to get married. I would like to tell them never, because that is the honest answer indeed. Does love exist? or is it just merely an illusion ? time to sleep and dream now

Time go give up on love foever ?

Yes I do think it is time to give up on love, and leave it in the past. Perhaps it was never meant for me. What is meant for me is big money and greatness. I don't believe in love... nor much in humans

Had a dream of love last night

It has been so long since I have dreamed of love or felt love. I thought I felt real love in this dream. She was beautiful with blonde hair. Also we were together on a train ride. She would cuddle next to me and we held and kissed each other. I wonder who she is. I want to find her and hold her one day. Till next time let us drink

A lost soul in a lost blog

Here I write a a lost soul in a lost blog. Well overall I need to get back to my writing which is my bread and butter. Stories, poetry etc. I just love this stuff, and it brings in the money also. I hardly write in this blog. But life has been more fun lately. It's truly an adventure. why is a raven like a writing desk ?

More alone than ever before

Lately I feel more alone than ever before. I have realized most people just talk to me when and because they want something from me. Most people do not support or respect me. Not that I care about them or those things. Mostly what hurts is I still have not found real love. I'm not flattered by those unattractive women on social media. I know what I must do to gain my success, and it is something I must do alone. The ones who actually love and support me will be there for the journey. As for everyone else, it will be time for me to vanish form the scene for a time, and just go for my dreams. In the end... i'm the only one that can reach my dreams, and make myself happy. Feeling more alone than ever before, but things actually look clear now. I doubt I will find love, but magic can be found again in life.

What a life so far! Older but still young

Wow it was years ago I started this blog. How things have changed sine this. Getting older but wiser. Will have a fun weekend! Always hold on to, and always remember the great times with friends of present and past Afterall those are the things that make life worth while aren't they ? Find the magical things in life.. they will lead you to bliss. Well time to sleep... Find me in a dream sometime

Getting older and wiser

Perhaps now these days I am getting older. Maybe a little wiser. I still look and act young. But I feel I do better, than that.

It's time to drink this potion go to sleep and face new magical adventures once again! Truly an inspiration to be able rise up life.

Well time to sleep on a cloud, then pancakes for breakfasts! have a magical time everyone! cheers to another year!

Good Memories and my soul soars agiain

For years I was trapped in anger and darkness. So many dark poem and stories written to release my sorrow and rage. page after page written. I thought all my joy and love was lost. For once i knew love. But the world does not care about my soul perhaps. But I have found happiness within once again....

Life is an adventure so live it. I do not know if I am feeling I am in love again, or maybe just my soul is more free and happy now. Time flows by ideas and poetry floats in the sky as well.
But I embrace the good memories, as well as good thoughts and dreams in the present as well...

well time to float in a dream... till next time I bid you farewell.

I still remember love so long ago

I still do remember love so long ago...
When we first met. I knew you were beautiful...
yet I had that dream many years ago you would not be true.
But I took the chance and loved anyway...
I got hurt and felt i was in darkness...

Life is just an adventure... will love ever come again?
only time can tell now... at times I feel lost....
will there be another to touch my soul the same way again ??

The beauty of life

So it seems people are reading this blog from google and twitter. Who would be interested in my inner soul?
Well life is beautiful. Even though I feel sad at times. About love or feeling alone. Really we are never alone. I often think about the friends I still have left. The good times I get to have with them... and how we will build an empire together!

Well time to sleep.. for I will drink beers and then create a great future along with good old friends! Magical blessings to you!
and good night

I am searching for my soul

Often we search for ourselves our souls. Where can we find it? I often wonder about this. SO many movies and TV shows, show us what true love is or couldbe like. But was it all just a dream. or was any of this real?
that is the real question.. let us find the answers!

Conncting with old friends

Lately I have enjoyed connecting with old friends again. It has been a while since I was able to connect with people Perhaps I do spend to much time here writing forever at my writing desk.

I got invited to an old friends wedding from the domain which I lived long ago. Then connected with some old friends and made plans for fun over the phone. Perhaps I just need to get out and explore more, and live out my dreams and reach my real destiny!

When will love come I am not sure. Perhaps one day. Till then life is still magical.

Talking to the moon in the darkness

I look up to the moon to talk to the moon. It shines brightly. Remembering long ago, when I thought love was real. But then I used to feel hope. Now I only see the darkness. perhaps it was my destiny to the the darkest and most powerful poet... Manifest your own destiny.

I'm better off alone

Why is the ones I like I don't find attractive at all? I think that maybe that is why I choose to stay away from social media. On top of that maybe just start ignoring the inbox. Oh well love will never come.
That is something that can never happen.

Words have power

Word have power yet you fear to use them...
why not unleash what is truly within?
Release everything to reach your full potential

Magical potions brew

Brewed some magical potions. Feeling pretty good!
How are you today?
who in the bloody hell even reads this blog?
that is the real question.

Then again... why is a raven like a writing desk ?

Perhaps I am darkness

Perhaps I am darkness. Perhaps I was always a ghost.. maybe nothing is real. Why is saying what you feel insane? better than being normal and mundane.

Feel like dipping into my darker form, writing poetry and scary tales, making lots of money. There is not love here anyway...
my decent into darkness began long ago...

Poem Under the Moon

In the noise of the insane and mundane world. Where do the lost souls and poets dwell? Those who dare to see and touch their dreams? What is is I truly seek? Eternal gold coins... or to feel her tender cheek. My words are magical when I speak.

A poet lost in a time when word and Rhyme are no longer noticed. So he cries alone under the moon beams, as the ghostly piano notes play melodies full of sorrowful memories...

Written in feather pen and inkwell was the legacy. I often used to dream of my love being true and eternal. But maybe this whole world and existence was always a lie. And it is why the lost souls cry for a better place to manifest... perhaps one day we can reach all our dreams...

Till then I sleep soundly on a cloud... and reach to the stars
for all my dreams to come true...

Alone I cry under the moon light...in the still of night
For I was always lost when I wrote this poem under the moon

When unattractive people want you on social media sites

Bloody hell i hate social media sites. I always get women who are not pretty messaging me. Do they honestly think I would be interested. What a waste of time they are for me. If only someone who looked like Catwoman or Holli Would would write me, then I would actually care. Blah social media is quite boring to say the least.

No luck in love no one is out there for me

 Lately I have had no bloody luck finding love. I mean when will I meet my one true love.
I never meet anyone in person. Then the women who write me on websites are never someone I could fall in love with. There was only one who was able to touch my heart long ago. But now she is gone. Our love could never be.
I play a song that we played when we first met Beauty and the Beast by Celine Dion.

Well time passes. If I will ever find love remains a mystery.. in time. Time flows like a river with new surprises everyday...
But lately no real luck in love. At least I have some memories of a time when I once loved..

Bloody hell Prince Died

Bloody hell prince died. Chyna died. So many people I look up to are dying. This is just very sad. I think that things are not right in this realm. People want me to get crazy, well they well get it. Don't ever try to tempt me. Well let's have a drink!

Why is a raven like a writing desk ?

Love was never meant for me I hide my tears forever in the purple rain (Poem)

It's a dark day when I realized love was never meant for me. So now I hide my tears forever in the purple rain. Because then you will never see my crying. I pretend to feel nothing, but I was really dying inside. Only alcoholic potions kept me sane. Mystical herbs helped me maintain.

I forget to tell. But then all I felt was pain. I walk alone in the purple rain drops. Is this how it all ends, time moves so fast but never stops. Where is the magic in my life? I create illusions and spells.
But to be alone was always my fate... for I will never find my soul mate.

Love was never meant for me.
So I hide my tears forever in the purple rain....
I sing you one last song.. before it all fades away..

Drank A sleeping potion I bid you good night!

Just had a wonderful sleeping potion! Time to fly in a dream

I write with feather pen and Inkwell

well it seems that I write my desires and dreams, with the feather pen. Let us manifest our dream into reality. Endless riches, and wonderful fantasy come true as  conjure up my destiny with the feather pen....
it write magical poetry forever for you

Day by day I fade away Love Is Dead

Day by day I fade away
My soul is so cold
I have nothing more to say..
I never wanted things to be this way...
But now I must say goodbye...

The man you once knew is no longer here..
Who have i become? I hardly remember myself anymore...
Love is dead...
so I'm a walking corpse...
immortalized with spells and mystic herbs...

Essence of the energy to rise from my darkness..

Why is a raven like a writing desk? written in blood upon the walls.
I often used to wonder what my true destiny was.

I remember the day love was dying..
you saw me there alone crying..
but never came to save me...

I'm fading... don't you see how I hide behind this mask?
it's so easy to pretend that I was alright inside...
Yet that was my little lie

Soon i'll fade away but rise as another soul....
These days I'm colder than snow
My true essence manifests...
I'm the mask in the shadows...
the soul nobody knows...

Love is dead....

Goodbye 

I'm more cold hearted than ever now

I seem to have gone cold hearted. Love was dying, now it's dead I'm not crying. I feel as if all my emotion is gone. They say love is a drug. Then it's not wonder so many souls drink and take drugs. It's no secret real love is just illusion.

I give up on love forever. How can I believe such a wonderful lie ?
I only want money and all my dreams to come true. One thing is for certain there is no one to love.

I will always be alone...

Always remain a mystery

In the end things always re main a mystery. If I stopped searching for love it is because I just stopped believing in it. I will probably never meet someone I find attractive enough, and yet I also sense I will never be able to trust any of you morals. Perhaps reaching my goals and dreams alone is my only choice now

Did love even exist ?

I wonder did love ever exist? Was is just in my mind a lost imagination ? Perhaps it was just a lost dream. I often wonder if love was ever real. Will magical romance ever manifest? I often wonder as my sinister pen continues to write words by the candle light

Did love ever exist? Or was everything just a dream ?

Searching for true love when will I find it?

Often we search our whole lives for that real true love, then we never seem to truly find it. Where it love at ? Has the whole world gone to hell and only lust is left? I often wonder. As days pass by, I get darker more sinister. I am losing more faith in ever finding true love. Where does it even exist anymore?

I often wonder about this late night at my writing desk.

It's always the one you don't want that likes you

Yes why does it seem it's always the one that you are not interested in that likes you so much? Often people who crush on us are the not the ones we will fall in love with. Then the one we want is to far, or someone we cannot ever be with. How love is a strange thing. Seems the universe was never on my side when it came to finding love.
Yet there is magic in each moment and day if we truly embrace it.
Once again I write forever with a magical pen.

Getting emotional but then not caring

For a moment last night I felt emotional again. You know feelings of wanting love again, of feeling alone once again in darkness. Yet I don't care. I am living my dream and making money. Good friends and family is all I need. If true love is not meant for me, then I will forever wander the earth as a mystic ghost!

I hardly write here anymore is there any adventure left ?

It's strange I don't like TV or radio because there bores me. Social media now bores me also. I just like to watch movies, and shows online. Of course reading and writing poetry is always something wonderful to do. I need to get back to writing poetry daily again. But I have been so busy setting up and running the magic toy shop. Stay tuned for the adventure, I suppose we create our own destiny and adventure don't we ?
Always use wisdom to find your path in life

Thinking late night how it all started

Thinking lately how this blog all started with love and dark poetry dedicated to my ex. Well she is gone now. I hardly have any inspiration for new poetry. Everything in this realm seems so boring and mundane. I often wonder what is my true destiny. Will love ever come? I often wonder.

It all started with random poetry and thoughts about Pacey and Tamara on Dawnsen's creek. I can't believe I used to watch that show on netflix. But those show sometimes let us see into a world of romance and excitement that does not seem to exist in this world anymore.

Thinking how it all started, and how it will go in the end.

When you lose all faith in love

It feels strange when you lose all faith in love. What I mean is where you no longer care about finding the one. When you know love will never come and you will always be alone forever.
That is when the darkness manifests. Yet there is power. For then ambition and greed take over more than anything else.
Perhaps it is to late my decent into darkness begins, yet another part of me keeps walking with positive energy. Only romantic love rests in a coffin now. But I will reach all other dreams in love... love can never be reached since it is not real...

No time for social media and busy building my empire

Lately I do not have any time for social media. I'm to busy building up my own empire. Let alone for love. But yes again I do not meet anyone I actually find attractive lately. Oh well I suppose it's only my destiny to chase money and reach my dreams in that sense.

Social media would be great if I was actually social.

Sipping healing potiions and thinking deeply

I sit here now writing at my writing desk and sipping a healing potion. Most of the time I know I will probably never find love. So then that is probably the reason for chasing gold so many nights. Often I think how wonderful it would be to manifest and live the greatest dreams... but it seems they've slipped away...Thinking deeply trying to remember a time I could feel.

What are we really searching for? Why do we seek love ?

What are we really searching for? We search the world, the net for answers. Are people looking for lots of money? a magical experience or true love? It seems many souls are searching for true. love. But will they ever find it?

We search for perfection. But sometimes it was right in front of us the whole time. But yet we keep searching. I search for true love, but it seems to always get away from me... Why is a raven like a writing desk ?

Bobby's World

Bobby's World is one of the best cartoons ever. I am up way to early and I want some breakfast now.

I will never fall in love

I hate when people and relatives ask me when I will get married. I tell them never. Because I will never fall in love. I don't believe one day I will wake up and meet someone who will change everything. No one will understand me. Plus I can't even meet anyone I am attracted to enough.

Blah I will never fall in love. I really hate when people keep asking me! I want to be rich. Love is not real.

I much rather drink some whiskey and get drunk than ever believe in love.

In a moment of inspiration everything was so clear!

In a moment of inspiration everything was so clear for once! I saw the glowing toys and art manifest. endless gold and riches came my way. All my dreams and desires started to manifest for the first time.

There is no stopping me now. I am in my zone for certain. But tell me something my friend. Why is a raven like a writing desk? Things are getting clear for the first time ever!

Manifest you dreams.. make your dream this reality.

Why do people search for love?

I often wonder why people search for love? Is it that we can't be happy being single alone? Do we all really need romance ? Is it just a plot by the candy companies to sell more candy on Valentines? No there is something more sinister at work here. The child support payments want your money. As well as the diaper and baby product companies. Ahhh I can see it now a bunch of evil guys plotting all this to get you to fall in love. And then bam! You fell in their trap and made them rich.

Foolish mortals !

Valentines day

Well it's Valentines Day again. This Holiday must have been created in the flames of hell. Because it just reminds single people they have not found magical love and happiness. I mean what the hell is this ? I think it's a special kind of torture. Well that is why I boycott the whole bloody thing. Oh yes and no facebook or going outside. Special message to you couples out there! No one cares you are in love, expect for the flower and candy companies you are making rich! You are not making me any money. So I don't care!

To hell with Valentines day.

Why do people spend to much time on facebook?

Ahh I often wonder why do people spend so much time on facbeook? at times it's a great place to post and share ideas. Other times not so much. It's a good place to keep up to date on things, and build thinking groups and common goals thing. But other than that, at tims it can bea big waste of time. I do like to talk about what kind of booze I consume on there however.

Reaching all my dreams and goals this year

Things are good to a great start already making nice products to sell. Website views and money is going up everyday. A lot of great and new projects coming up! this the year to reach all my dreams!

But tell me my friend why is a raven like a writing desk ?

Is online dating a waste of time?

The question tonight is online dating a waste of time? And the answer is yes. This is because chances are you won't meet someone beautiful like Cat Woman from batman returns. Or Vicki Vale from Batman. You will get all the people you don't want. People with no goals, no sex appeal and just plain boring people.

Online dating is probably the biggest waste of time in the universe. You are better off getting drunk and talking to bull frogs in the middle of the night.

Life seems to empty and boring without love

I remember long ago I was so excited about life. I thought I had found true love. But she only reminded me, that perhaps true love never existed. Was it my destiny to forever be alone in this realm?

Back then I used to be filled with joy at the sound of love songs. Now I wish to never hear them again. What is love? Does it even exist? Perhaps it was just a lie to make use be stupid enough to reproduce. Of course I don't see the point in life. It seems to dull boring.

What ever happened to love, adventure, and romance? I see none in this realm. So never judge me for being dark! It's is the only thing left that is true.

Poor lost souls out there

It makes me sad to see so many lost souls out there on the net. Feeling alone and sad. I suppose it's why many of them can relate to my dark writings. Know always you have a friend in me, even though I am a dark ghost in the shadows. But when you want to talk I am here. Bless all the sad and lost souls. I am their power, I am their voice through the power of words.

This is the year to reach all my dreams

Yes as I rise up this year. it will be the year to reach all my dreams and get everything I desire. Many people do not ever want to reach their dream. But it's up to each of us to reach our real potential.

They fear the darkness

Such foolish mortals fear the darkness. But it's from the shadows where I get the power and gold. Soon we shall rise to take our rightful place in the world. As time goes by I become stronger. But many fear change.

so continue to fear my darkness foolish mortals !

She would not like me if she knew the real me

You would not like me if you knew the real me. You see my darkness is in secrets. Many things I could not reveal to you. So how could you love my soul? if you could not love a long lost memory. I have tried to find the real love, but it keeps slipping away.

But if you knew the real me, then you would never love me. I'm only your infatuation, but will never be your love.

Why some people will never find love

I think the reason some people will never find love is because they simply don't know that love is not real. I use to think love was very real in my younger years. I am not old by far. But I seem to have lost all faith in finding true love.

Does it even exist ? it's so hard to get excited by anything anymore. Nevertheless even harder to meet someone beautiful. Perhaps love will never come. But I keep shining in the darkness..

Late night writings and magical potions

I am up late just having some magical potions of the beer kind. And up doing some late night writing. I often think about so many things. I know I will reach my real dreams. But will I ever find true love? Well that is the question !?

Who else is drunk tonight? and why is a raven like a writing desk ?

The new year should be great!

The new year should be just great! A lot of great things coming up. New adventures with friends and magical times ahead! let the new year begin and let's win!

FInally Saw Star Wars The Force Awakens !

Well I finally got the see Star War the force awakens! And I must say it was quite wonderful indeed! I loved it! I am not going to really write much of a review. But I must say it was awesome, and really did impress me! Just as good as the original 3 episodes !

I often wonder who reads this bloody blog!

Yes lately I seem to be getting quite a bit of views to this blog. But it's not from search engines or links. It seems some is just reading the posts directly from my blog. Well if I have a secret admirer out there wonderful! It's nice to know someone cares about the essence of my soul. Or perhaps they want my soul in that case it would be a bit scary.

No matter what I have but one question left. Why is a raven like a writing desk ?

You ever talk to bull frogs in the middle of the night ?

This is a question I like to ask everyone I meet. It let's you know what kind of person they really are. Oh you want to know who invented that line Jack Nichalson said it in an old film! And it's a great line!

So tell me you ever talk to bull frogs in the middle of the night ?