Found my soul again flying again

For years I searched for love in another. Trying to only find a soul mate to complete me. When really I was already complete, Life is a magical adventure. Seeing this movie tonight, made me realize i am lucky to have the love of my mother. Many people never had that. Also seeing new friends and family, as my circle expands... then I feel magical and blessed inside. Maybe I am not so alone... maybe i am not so dark. yet sometimes I wish I hide in the darkness... Yet I am always a mystery to you all and will be. But tonight I fly again with good emotions...

I think I don't believe much in love anymore

It's so easy to forget about love. To deep inside know there is no one out there for me. To know I will never find what I am truly looking for. Maybe it's why these days i feel more sadness than ever before. Today especially. I had a friend ask me when it would be my turn to get married. I would like to tell them never, because that is the honest answer indeed. Does love exist? or is it just merely an illusion ? time to sleep and dream now