Love does not exist ! decent into darkness

Foolish people think love is real. But the truth is love does not exist in this realm. Only darkness remains. In my own world I only see the darkness. I will tell you why I feel love does not exist any longer. To start off I have never found love. I can not believe in something I've never seen.

Then people expect me to pay attention to women who are not attractive. This just makes me see love does not exist. I will never settle for less. I believe it is better to be alone than with someone you don't find to be attractive.

Also all the people with broken hearts, child support bills, etc make me not even want anything to do with love. As far as I am concerned love is dead and it can go straight to hell.

Once upon of time love might have existed. But it is dead now! Embrace the darkness. You mere mortals make me laugh.

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Past memories

Oh yeah I remember great memories, and I bet those can come back one day. Well they will stay with me forever. The first time I got so drunk off whiskey I threw up and passed out in the living room. Staying up late drinking vodka till 6 am in the morning, watching movies. And still getting up in time to McDonald's breakfast in time to be at the bar by 10 am. Good times! And as I get older I feel I can't do it like that anymore. I need my sleep. Or maybe it was just the raw energy from being high off life tha kept me going. Who knows but those were some good times.

New good and fun times manifest in other ways. Of course I continue to always write with the pen. What is my true destiny ? will I ever find love. These are questions I wish I knew the answer to. At times I look into the mystic world to find the answer. But perhaps those who claimed to be powerful are not as powerful as it once seemed. Now matter I keep on writing... the words from my pen will flow on forever.

I once believed in love

I once did believe in love so long ago. It was a time when I was more innocent and open to the idea of love. I was not always the dark sinister poet you see before you today! Of course I am much more powerful as my sinister wise self. But perhaps I am to clever for my own good. When we are care free and innocent we fall for people a lot easier.

But of course that was very a long ago. A time when I composed love songs and poems. But no longer do I conjure up words of love. For that was in the past. I wish love was real now, but I fear only gold and self empowerment are the way to reach my dreams.

Getting lost in my writing again

I'm not very social lately. I'm more intro reading and watching movies. I don't need to be on facebook or twitter all the time. It's fun to go on there once in a while drunk. But other than that it's not that great. I might need to make a new page to just promote my written dark works. Of course facebook and twitter to have their uses.

But being on them all the time and wasting time chatting is not productive. I used to spend much time on chat rooms when I was younger and I never made a single dollar doing it.

Well as time goes by, it's clear I need to make money first before I can do other things. I'll visit facebook when I was time, if it's very important you can send me a written letter. Just kidding.

But yes time to get lost in my writing again. I need to start writing as well as recording again daily. For that is my bread and butter and path to much gold. May the power of wisdom be with you.

Where are you my true love?

I try so much to find you. At times I can feel you are out there somewhere. But where could your lovely soul be? I try to cover up my soul with dark masks. Hiding behind being to busy and making money. Always claiming love is not real. When in reality I am searching for something more. Perhaps there is a true love still out there in the universe. I have searched for it everywhere. But were does it truly dwell? That is the question. When will I find the answers.

At times we search all the websites trying to find out if love is real. Trying to know what is real in this life. But where is the answer. Is this all there is? Me sitting at my writing desk composing poetry and writing poetry as the candles burn? At times I wonder. I often think when will I find my true love? Perhaps I just need to go on an adventure out into the world. Perhaps what I search for is right around the corner. Till next time! I bit you good night.

It all started out small and grew into something more

Even though this particular blog where I only write about feelings and the soul has not made me much gold, it is still a very important blog to me. You see a lot of poetry I made here I posted on youtube and there it earns me much gold. At times I know personal blogs do not earn very much money. However I love to write and express myself. Write down thoughts and ideas.

Time flows so fast it's hard to know what happens to it. But one thing is for certain. I will continue to write with the magic pen. Create and enjoy each day and all the gold and wonders it will bring to me.

Love? I wonder if it exists. I do not want to fall into empty lust only. I wish true love still existed and perhaps I will find it once day. I am thinking of writing a love letter on a page and casting it in a bottle into the sea. Well then if my love were to find it... perhaps then love was real.

Only time can tell now. But now I need another drink. Why is a raven like a writing desk my friend ?