Why can't I fall in love?

I think many people in the world think about why they can't fall in love. It's because many of us never find someone special or a soul mate. For me I know I can't fall in love unless I am attracted to the person and feel a deep soul mate connection. But I feel that maybe overall I will never find my lover or soul mate.

For this reason I dedicate my life to other interests as well as writing dark poetry and books showing how love is a lie in this world and does not really exist. Forever wrapped up in my own world and vanity... but This is what life is about and how it has become for me.

I can't fall in love. I am not evil, I just can't find my soul mate.

Love is dead to me now.